Aversio

I finally felt the warmth of your chest pressing against mine
But it was just the defibrillator charging
Next time I open up
Is gonna be my autopsy
Like a religious art piece
Grotesque, haunting
Full of guilt

All of my devotion turns violent
Sometimes being offered tenderness feels
Like the very proof that you've been ruined
The doctor asked if I knew who did this to me
I gave them my own name
But I spoke it in your exact tone of voice

It's an act of hope
Just to open my eyes
When dreams are more real
Than what's ahead

I play dead so often
I forgot how to live

Oh, void wanderer
Never forgive the world
For making you meaner

I’ve been there.. yet I haven’t
Black mass can't ease the pain
There's nothing here, there's nothing, nothing sane
I swear I know your name
Unheimliche

Who infested who?
Home is the first grave
Red ink colours the page
The fire of my mind portrayed
Across the images we create

I'm the shape you made me
Filth teaches filth

Your confidence waves as you strike a match
To light a cigarette
Your hands are shaking
My insides are showing

Suffering feels religious if you do it right
What triggers you
Controls you
Heal