I Used to Hide Her Name in my Signature

It's summer again

But I keep waking up in December

Someone's still there, waiting for me in the snow

From eye to eye

To skin to skin

Consuming descent

From old floorboards

To wet cement

Today is an elegy for the glass dolls

Who died believing that to be loved is to be seen

Emptiness is not a state

It's the default reality

Loneliness holds the edge of surface

A sickness unspoken

Made only worse by everyone who's never known it

Now what’s left to miss?

You are the cancer I pray on my knees

And when death will visits me again

I doubt he'll notice I have a life to take

Heartbreak builds in every word never said

Reduced me to a child again

Hand over my mouth, tears in my eyes and a pit in my stomach

Surreal and familiar in the same stroke

From eye to eye

To skin to skin

Consuming descent

From old floorboards

To wet cement

As I suffocate in a rayon coffin

I'll dream the most pathetic heaven

Discarded chrome

Lost in the digital noise

Our hearts are monsters

That's why our ribs are cages

Don't pray anymore, the Sky is deaf

Hearing the floor breathe

The vacant space stares back

Will I be free once I'm obsolete?

Everything I fantasized, left me traumatized

Sadness is rebellion and self hate is respect

The other side of healing

I put you back together

Piece by piece

Just to find there's no room for me

From eye to eye

To skin to skin

Consuming descent

From old floorboards

To wet cement

I’d rather be hated by you than loved by anyone else

Just a dog licking the hand that holds the blade

Praying the bleed out lasts longer than the memory we made

Our bedroom became a home

To deserted dreams and an old piano

The only way to stay, is to be too much to move

So I'll stay here and I'll wait for you